The curse of being obvious

There are very few times when a person actually judge you exactly the way you want yourself to be judged, an ordinary kid. But unfortunately most of the time the definition of being ordinary is overrated or somehow underrated. The following story is about a boy being obvious throughout his life.

How can you possibly blame Raj, when all your parents ever dream of is seeing you at the top of everything you can possibly lay your eyes upon. And certainly the ABCD won't possibly be a better judgement to make you a genius or a dumb guy. But for Raj's parents, he can do anything that is humanly possible for others. So somehow he actually thought he was pretty special somehow. Be it academics or rather his creativity, the believed that he will outdo everyone. Its always blissful to live your three-fold Utopian dream, only if his teachers would share the same belief as his parents. Its often very difficult for a person to convince himself he is of any worth or not. Because somehow in the end of the day, you will always ignore the dark side of yourself to see the good in you, and somehow every last one of us still think we are good inside. Raj's teachers considered him as a complete waste. He wasn't the topper of the class by the time he reached his class x and certainly not the teacher's favorite. It filled him with sheer disappointment. But with time the disappointment faded away with the acceptance of the fact that maybe he isn't smart after all. He eventually gave up on trying to be good in his studies. 

Raj always thought he would make a better artist than a scholar and in many ways it was somehow true. He made incredible cartoons and pretty good compared to many others. In his spare time he used to make cartoons of his teachers, sometimes resembling them well enough and sometimes it was bluntly accurate. But what actually scared him was the fact what if he wasn't good enough. What if he was a waste after all. The primal fear grew into a continuous refusal to every opportunity he recieved to make himself useful. The hopes of his parents were let down and they expected the very least from him.At this situation, he actually believed everyone around him rather than believing in himself. You can't blame him. The disappointment hit him hard and he gave up on his own life. The defeat is not always the real problem, rather its the fear of the defeat that breaks a person. Slowly he started to avoid people, he assumed that they won't understand what he was going through. With every passing day, he expected the least from the world around him, who literally doesn't give a fuck to his existence.

 Dreams are better off Dreams until they haunt you back to your own damned reality. And that alone push you right back to the pit of ordinary people trying and hoping to be exception but miserably failing. And that was the same for Raj as well, his very own curse of being an obvious.